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paranoid android by RADIOHEAD

Jonsie Birginson Of Sigur Ros

We Are All In Judging

We are all in judging,people judging people, without they realized they were judged by others too, is like a vicio circle, there's no beginning, there's no ending, people loves to talk about others bad side, it's naturally, eventhough it realized or not, don't be such a hypocrite please ;p Actually people loves to find others badside just to make themselves looks good and better, that's pathetic.., isn't it? I think we are student for others, we are teacher for others too, no one superior from others, we are same, living under the same sky, the judgementally it's not belong to us, it's belong to God. May the world live in peace please... :D

Sometimes In Everytimes

Sometimes I can describe
But sometimes everything is too dark
Sometimes I want to soar
But sometimes I just want to sleep in this craddle
Sometimes I feel so strong
But sometimes it's hard to breathe
Sometimes I want to challenge a crowd
But sometimes I'm too scared to stare at one face
Sometimes I feel I'm a superhero
But sometimes I run to hide
Sometimes I'm feeling so beautiful 
But sometimes i want to drown my self
Sometimes I have grabbed a star
But sometimes I realize my hands is still empty
Sometimes I play in movie comedy
But sometimes I make tears in drama tragedy
Sometimes I splash a warmth sun
But sometimes unrealized I burn the emotion
Sometimes I can write a long lyrics
But sometimes it's so hard to write a single word
Sometimes I dance in rhyme
But sometimes I just sit in silently
Sometimes i want to take look around
But sometimes I feel myself is the center of anything
Sometimes I daring to saying, "This is me!"
But sometimes I still asking, "Who am I?"

I know life is never be the same
Day by day have a different ways
That kind of sometimes has open my eyes
I'm a part of this mysterious universe

Not just sometimes, but every time
I have to walk on 
Try to learn in every moment
Try to appreciate in every moment
Try to enjoyed in every moment

And when I die....
I know my life isn't white canvas anymore
But it had been drawn a great picture

The End

i'm not sure about tomorrow
indeed i don't really know about tomorrow
may be i just can figure it out for a while
coz i don't have mathematics counted to predict tomorrow

damn
who knows tomorrow i don't have to breath to live
who knows tomorrow i'll see everything though my eyes closed
who knows tomorrow i feel the most beautiful place where's i don't

wanna be
who knows tomorrow my dream is nothing
i don't know coz tomorrow have another story
a story that could be ended at the moment in tomorrow
tomorrow is there for me ready or not
tomorrow won't there for me ready or not

here i am
with the strength as a person between others
with the weakness as a person in God's hand
i love, i hates
i give, i accept
but when tomorrow never there
i surrender...
i don't have any choice any more

Lullaby Untuk Otakku

Tubuh lelah 
Pikiran melambat 
Tapi aku tetap exist dialam nyata 
Ugh ada suatu pergerakan dicelah jiwaku 
Aktivitas semu yang tak mau diajak kompromi 
Seperti kran bocor 
Menetes perlahan dan intens 
Sangat menganggu... 

Kupaksakan segenap sistem tubuhku 
Tolong bekerjasamalah mata dan otak 
Mencari jalan pintas menuju ketidaksadaran 
Tapi yang ada justru jalan buntu 
Dasar otak keterlaluan... 

Awas kalau nanti aku tidak bermimpi indah 
Kau sudah cukup membuatku menderita 
Ah kuterima sajalah... 
Semoga untuk malam ini saja yah...

Mestinya....

Mestinya... 


Kerinduan ini mestinya berbentuk vertikal 
Berada pada suhu 0 derajat celcius,beku.. 
Tidak bergerak kemana mana 
Cukup tersimpan dihati saja 

Maafkan aku yang sudah menyusahkanmu 
Dengan keluh kesahku yang tak berarti untukmu 
Kerinduanku kepadanya memang berbanding lurus 
Tidak ada reaksi kimianya denganmu untuk saat ini 

Terimakasih untuk mulut lancangmu 
Trimakasih untuk tamparan dihatiku 
Tamparan tidak membuat mati 
Hanya menyadarkan hati 
Aku tidak marah 
Aku tidak apa apa 

Hanya aku yang mengerti arti kerinduan ini 
Tidak ada kaitannya denganmu 
Untuk saat ini... 

Euphoria

Senyum ini tak dibuat buat
Asli dari dasar hati yang paling kuat
Ingin ku berteriak dan melompat lompat
Terlepas sudah beban yang berat

Bahkan semalam ku bertemu malaikat
Menerbangkanku dengan sayapnya yang mengkilat
Dia memelukku sangat erat
Bisiknya : " Mana pernah Tuhan jahat.."

Kuharap perasaan ini tak cuma sesaat
Sudah bosan ku diserang rasa penat
Takkan kubiarkan kesedihan datang melumat
Yang ingin kurasakan cuma rasa nikmat

Esok mimpi indahku mungkin datangnya telat
Esok bisa jadi kesepian datang menjerat
Memang tebakanku tak selalu tepat
Tapi, terserah euphoria ini belum mau berkarat...

Constraint

I just stand up for what i believing
This is my choice the reason i living
Don't point your finger at me
Who are you daring to judging me

Blood running through my veins
Motivation and inspiration move without compulsion
No one could ever directing where i should run
My life not imitation, it can't be torn

Even you try to despise my faith
I'm still keep it, my soul won't faint
Flame still burnt, the spirit inside won't extinguished
I hold the unbreakable soul that i established

Don't talk about reputation and comity
Ask your self do you have a piece of dignity?
Life isn't just vision of black and white
Perversion still can hide even though we turn on the light

We can't be perfect, why don't we respect each other
Stop to swank like a single fighter
Don't make it harder life isn't easy
Break the conspiracy, let's united in one harmony

Some Suicide

Life had broken without struggle
Snow taste like devil
No empty hand gave help
Even self, feels very low

Not always 'cause some old mistakes
Just the unfair of life
Tears come out like a float
Still cannot find the reason why

Generous feeling so futile
Cannot guarantee the quit of sadness
They say the world is always rolling
But why the bright side tired to turning

The pure mind stuck in darkness
Just pull the trigger everything will be fine
Doesn't care what had been waiting above
With smile, release from the pain inside

My Universe...

I open my arms feels the sensation
Flying away blast the infinity horizon
Embrace nebula, it spare glare perfection
This simulacrum had lost the reflection

Here i am lying on the velvet cumulus
Testify zephyr blow the sun to pendulous
This miracle invasion look to fabulous
I was contagious by happiness virus

Aurora illustrate dazzling shimmer
So fascinating I've got my own summer
Nothing can be this greater
Ultimately is something that i will remember

Vivid hallucination redeeming serenity
I'm sing like a hysteria fairy
This dreamer just needing this heartbeat as the melody
Quit to scrawl my freedom is the remedy

Mental Disorder

Saat cinta dan akal sehat bertautan,
tumpang tindih diatas titik equilibrium,
melukis konfigurasi kompleks yg membingungkan,
sang hipotalamus pun tersentak,
invasi chaos yg tak kenal ampun,
ledakan2 emosi mengguncang jiwa,
fragmen2 kebahagiaan pun berjatuhan,
luluh lantak tak tertolong,
pusat saraf kehilangan sensornya,
mental disorderkah jadinya..

Ada saat virus ikut bertaut,
mengkontaminasi lukisan di titik itu,
menumpahkan tinta di atas kanvas hipotalamus.
virus iblis yang meredefinisi akal sehat;
mengacaukan kekacauan yang ada;
menggantikan fragmen2 yang berjatuhan;
menyusun ulang sensor pada pusat saraf;
menciptakan Homeostasis baru.
Saat cinta dan akal sehat serta virus bertautan,
kegilaankah jadinya..

Krisis Identitas

Logika mengendalikan sang jiwa yang kerdil

Terhilang dalam keseragaman

Kiri; kanan; atas; bawah

Menyaksikan kekacauan disekelilingmu

Menghancurkan ambisimu

Keegoisanmu pupus

Terlalu banyak warna, membingungkan

Dimanakah seberkas cahayamu?

Bersembunyi dalam kegelapan

Orang-orang tersenyum menatapmu

Orang-orang tak kan menangis bersamamu

Penilaian mereka mengikat erat tanganmu

Norma dan peraturan mendadak absurd buatmu

Kau menemukan dirimu dalam krisis

Mencoba merekonstruksi ulang hipotesismu

Keyakinanmu kini tak berdasar

Berdiri diatas puing penyangkalan

Dimanakah dirimu yang sesungguhnya?

In My Vertigo

Where's everyone?

Feel so cold here

So sick and tired Sick in my head, down to my heart

This pain sabotage me

Here I am

Round and round in my own world

With breakfast and lunch dancing in my stomich

Here I am While people partying outside

Enjoying theirself tonight

I just stay here in my cage

Lock it inside

And hope I forget the key

Just me and my self tonight

Having each other, holding each other, loving each other

Then..

I remember

I still have my beautiful little pil

To wash my brain again

Drink it, and forget the rest

Anugerah VS Dosa

Mengapa cinta harus ada?

Untuk apa ada cinta?

Cinta telah menjebak manusia

Menjerat adam dan hawa

Kedalam lembah dosa

Mengapa Tuhan tak memusnahkan saja

Rasa cinta manusia

Cintakah sarana-Nya 'tuk tujuan penciptaan?

Cintakah alat-Nya 'tuk legitimasi reproduksi?

Keegoisan didalam cinta jadinya cemburu

Keangkuhan didalam cinta jadinya penindasan

Kebebasan penuh didalam cinta jadinya dosa

Yang terparah...

Apa yang benar, apa yang salah dari cinta?

Apakah pantas pembenaran atas nama cinta?

Pada akhirnya semua kan bermuara pada sakit hati

Tersandung lagi, sakit, luka...

Terseok seok , berjalan...

Berharap kan ditemukan kembali

Oleh sang cinta

Tapi semuanya sia-sia

Karna cinta kan berulah kembali

Begitulah seterusnya

Dimanakah sang cinta sejati itu?

Sang cinta agape?

Sadomasokis Pada Cabai

Cabai itu pedas

Terkadang bikin nangis

Tapi anehnya

Tak nikmat makan tanpanya

Sama seperti hidup

Jika tak ada tantangan

Jika sesekali tidak merasakan sakit hati

Tidak benar-benar hidup rasanya

Airmatalah tanda pelepasan emosi....

Oh iya tapi jangan kebanyakan

Nanti mulas jugalah..:p

KUBIKEL

Dalam dunia kubusku yang terpencil

Musik mengalun, berdenting nada-nada minor

Duduk melamun, tertunduk sendu

Memandangi kaca jendela yang berkabut

Hujan gerimis diluar sana

Awan gelap meredupi cakrawala

Daun-daun basah yang menari

Visi terindah dalam sekelebatan waktuku

Titik-titik air menggenang diselaput mata

Racun kesepian mengalir cepat dialiran darah

Hari apakah ini?

Siapakah aku hari ini?

Haruskah kuperduli?

Hanya ide-ide gila yang mengintervensiku

Hanya ide-ide saja

Mimpi-mimpi masa lalu

Mimpi-mimpi masa depan

Pelangiku berwarna sephia

dan kelabu Indah mengiris kalbu..